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Jun. 9th, 2008


Maybe Baby

I have never felt pain like this before. Tim, our midwife and I are all in agreement that it is time to get checked. We're going to go in and meet her at the office and see how things are before deciding if it is time to check in at the hospital.

Just FYI.

May. 8th, 2008


Still Cookin'

At the hospital they were able to stop preterm labor with medication. We have to wait 18 days until he is full term to have him, so I'm on bedrest and I have medication to stop contractions should they start again.

May. 7th, 2008


early first stage

I believe this is called early first stage labor. I woke up with contractions - my entire stomach hardening and tightening with each squeeze. And then I was famished. And then I had diarrhea. I'm going to try to go back to sleep now, see if I can get some snoozing action done. Because if this isn't early first stage, I'll have to be at work in under five hours.

But I'm pretty sure it is. Just need to time contractions. I'll wake up if they get closer and harder. Besides, I have to wake Tim up in under 2 hours. So I'd better go.

And we're back.

I have now showered, applied makeup and foregone perfume. I'm not quite sure what to do with myself now. Sleeping didn't work. Now I'm going to attempt to time my contractions for a while. I have half an hour until Tim needs to wake up.

Here goes...

When I first started timing, contractions were 10 minutes apart early this morning. The second section, after the shower, had contractions that were 9 minutes apart. We are now at 8 minutes apart. I have napped, showered, walked and the contractions are still there.

I sent Tim off to work this morning since we don't know how long it will take or if it really is the time. I am sure it is time, but I don't know how long the first part will take. I would rather have Tim keep busy at work than to have him staring at me right now. Now I just need to keep me busy.

5 to nine and I placed a call in to the doctor's office. I suck at timing contractions, seems to be about 6 minutes apart. Just got back from a walk with the dog. Feeling kinda shaky. Need to make sure I know in time to get Tim home from work. I have a spare outfit for him to change into if he has to come straight to the hospital. Hospital is under 2 min away from our house. Same as doctor's office.

Just past 9:30. The office just called back and they need me to go in to an appointment so they can talk about stopping preterm labor.

I put a call in for Tim, who knows when he'll get it.

Dec. 5th, 2007


Oh Sandy

Where are you? How is Fiona?

Nov. 12th, 2007



I think I need to go the 7-11 on the other side of the block to get some Tylenol. Ow. My head.

Nov. 11th, 2007



Despite some technical difficulties, I have arrived in Chicago in one piece. Although I was not able to eat the dinner I ordered, I did have some food. I'm more lonely and homesick than I ever thought I would be. I guess this feeling is homesickness, I'm not too familiar with it. I'm wavering between sobbing and relaxing. Tomorrow is the first of five days of classes and then home sweet home to my darling again. I miss him more than words.

Oct. 29th, 2007



Having the flu sucks.
Having the flu while pregnant super-sucks.

Oct. 27th, 2007

liberty for all

Business trip

I will be going to Chicago on a business trip in 3 weeks (Nov 11). The hotel I have reservations with is pet friendly, so now I am trying to find a dog walker in Chicago who will be able to take my dog out for walks while I am in meetings. The hotel will have a doggie bed and doggie bowl ready in the room when we arrive, and having her there with me will help me not to be lonely. Plus, I'll get some fresh air myself from taking her out. She is such an angel.

In related news, Tim took our large dog to the shelter today. I have been unable to sufficiently train him. He is possessive of me and jealous for my attentions, which would both make for bad circumstances with the baby. I have truly failed him. Tim took him in today, they have separate bins to drop off dogs when there are no employees there. The doors lock when they are closed, so there is no way to get him back. Tim said he stuck his nose in, saw a food and water dish and went in. Tim said good bye, he looked back at him and then went back to the food and water. Tim closed the door and it was done. He said all the ride down there, he was laying on Tim. He knew what was happening, both dogs did. The shelter will keep him for 3 days before deciding if he is adoptable. If they decide he is adoptable, he will stay until he is adopted. It is the best we can hope for him. We could not find anyone with a good home who wanted him, he is a large and energetic dog. I feel terrible, and I have only made it worse on Tim who actually had to do the terrible deed. I know I am a terrible pet owner and because of my mistakes, the dog has to suffer. I can only hope that he goes to a good home and that he is well loved. I will continue to cry for my loss, and for the suffering he is going through without a loving family at this time. My heart hurts, but there is no way we had another option with the baby on the way.

Oct. 26th, 2007


I Love Baby

Yesterday was Tim's birthday and we were able to see the baby, hear the baby's heartbeat and see the flicker of the baby's heartbeat. We also saw little arms and legs. The picture we were able to take home from the ultrasound is a picture of a fuzzy dot. I love my fuzzy dot. It was such an overwhelming moment, I loved every second and I can't wait until the next time. It's truly unbelievable.

Oct. 17th, 2007


7 weeks

Tomorrow we will be 7 weeks. I have started napping in my car instead of having lunch. I snack during the day, so it's ok. The smell of coffee sends me reeling. Tim is a pain in the butt sometimes. He doesn't understand the hormone side of it. He is trying, though. He is working a lot of overtime. We are going to our first appointment next week at 8 weeks. Tim is going to be able to go with me. It's our appointment with our midwife, I'm not sure how he is going to react because he's not too sure about using a midwife. He thinks they are illegal and kill babies. But I just have to educate him.

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