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Sep. 30th, 2007


baby dreams

Last night I had a dream that flowed from my first ultrasound until the day of delivery (before it happened). At the ultrasound, it was discovered that I was carrying twins. And then later on, we found out they were boys. At the end, I was walking the hospital halls, trying to help labor. It was so wonderful and so beautiful. I woke up at 4am, and I was so excited that I couldn't go back to sleep!

Sep. 7th, 2007



Our friend is in the hospital again. I'm very worried about her. After I finally tracked down which hospital she was in, which required calling another friend after I had forgotten one of our local hospitals, I sent her flowers from Tim and I.


It is the Big Hug Bouquet. The florist was wonderful, but I couldn't think of anything to put on the card. I just went with her first suggestion: Thinking of You. Tim and Joanna.

Sep. 6th, 2007


For real

Tim and I are going to try to have kids.

Aug. 31st, 2007


Jesus Martinez, mi abuelito


Aug. 19th, 2007



We had a great time this weekend in Indy.

We went to the Indy Motor Speedway and did a grounds tour and walked through the museum. We did a bit of shopping and went to an awesome show at the Cabaret Theatre - it was an Elvis show. Before the show, we had a great dinner at the Rathskeller. After the show we took an hour long carriage ride through downtown. It was so good.

Aug. 4th, 2007


Part Time Job

Today when we went in to eat at McDonald's (healthy, I know), there was a sign that announced they were hiring weekend help. I grabbed an application and filled it out after eating. I turned it in to one of the managers and she asked if I had time to do a survey. I said I did and filled out the survey, which was basically asking personality and previous work history questions. When I turned it in, she said to give them about a week, but if I wanted to speed it along I could come in for the open interviews Sunday from 2p-3p. Now I have to decide if I actually want the job.

It would help us quite a bit to have an additional source of income. With the bills we have and the debts we brought in, it would help a great deal to be able to have more money to pay them with. Although the job wouldn't be mentally stimulating, it would be more activity than I have on my day job, which is primarily sitting at a desk. The downsides include not being able to have as much time to spend cleaning the house, organizing the budget and coupons and taking care of the dogs. I would have to rely on Tim to pick up some of the slack. If I don't get a second job, Tim will go out and get one which I do not consider an option. His work is very physically demanding, and especially in the summer he is completely exhausted when he comes home. It is also very dangerous and very drama-filled, so he needs time to wind down.

I did apply at a grocery store today too, so maybe that will come through. But I won't know until later, maybe later this week, maybe later than that. So do I go in for the interview tomorrow?

I think the answer is that I do.

Jul. 30th, 2007



I think I'm one of those people who wants a large family. I think I just want to keep popping out babies until my extended family is asking when it will all stop because they can't remember the names of all of our delightful little offspring. Now if only I can convince my husband that this is a good idea...

In all honesty, I would love to have a medium-sized family. I think 2 is too few and 11 is too many. Somewhere in between would be right nice for me, I think. Of course this is all before I have 1, so I'm not sure how I will feel after that experience. But yes, a large family would be nice, as long as we could afford at least part of it.

That is all.

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i cried my way into work this morning.

my little dog is sick. she's not feeling well, and so i'm trying to help her feel better. i'm terrified that when i take her to the vet this afternoon they will tell me that she isn't going to get better. and have to put her to sleep.

i can't think about it too long or i will cry my afternoon away.

Jul. 28th, 2007


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I'm clicking things without reading and I'm not sure how I end up on different pages.

However, my slight step backwards has proven to be relatively short, and I'm back up and going as I should be. I'm making plans, I'm getting ready to bake (although I'm still not relying on my attempts at a pie crust) and I'm enjoying the things that are here. I'm joking and keeping a smile on my face. I think I'm doing well.

I have some concerns, the same ones I have with relative frequency, but I'm trying to keep them out of my head so that I don't become obsessed. The only problem with that is that more and more things happen to make me consider... again. So I will try not to do that.

I love my dogs, I love my husband, I love life.

Jul. 27th, 2007


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I'm sorry to report that my fear has come true: I have turned into a girly-girl.

It's weird how it happened, gradually over time, without me really realizing the full extent to which it was happening. Last night I had my nails done. Not for pictures, not to wear with my wedding gown. Just because I wanted it. Before that I'd been painting my nails for a while. I love the color pink. There are pink silk flowers sitting in a glass pitcher on my desk. I'm becoming more and more concerned with what I see in the mirror, and I realize that all these years of not really paying attention have not paid off. Hopefully that puts a little dedication in my mind. There are other things, too. I'm very interested in cooking and having children. I care about how my hair looks, and not only that but I am longing for it to fall over my shoulders in long, luxurious locks.

I wanna be a supermodel.

Ok, not really a supermodel because I don't think that will ever happen, but it's strange how it has happened that I've pulled out on my own into my girly ways. It's not really disappointing, it's just weird that I wake up one day and realize that I want to start having manis regularly. Maybe even a pedi someday.

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